Fil-Am Frustration

I have been try­ing to get Kim to blog almost as long as I have been doing it myself. She is a wealth of knowl­edge about a broad range of top­ics and, I, being a believer in the power of the inter­net and of the free dis­tri­b­u­tion of infor­ma­tion, think her thoughts could be enlight­en­ing to oth­ers. Her response is usu­ally the same: some­thing like “I don’t read for any­one else but myself.” Which I com­pletely under­stand, but the inter­net being what it is and there is enough on the web of home­less peo­ple fight­ing or drunk teenagers “ghost rid­ing the whip” or fat gay men slag­ging on their favorite celebri­ties’ unfor­tu­nate paparazzi pho­tos. I think the world can always ben­e­fit from intel­lec­tu­als (or even pseudo intel­lec­tu­als) with unique per­spec­tives. Kim and her cousins have their own myspace group where they talk trash about each other and goof around. Occa­sion­ally they get into some inter­est­ing dis­cus­sions but most often it is used as an info board for them to keep tabs on each other. I am encour­ag­ing one her cousins to open a wordpress.com account (and maybe later an actual stand-alone install) and start a, legit­i­mate, “Kabute Blog” for the KabKids to con­verge on a more tech­no­log­i­cally mature and fea­tured plat­form where they can dis­trib­ute media and pho­tos and make any­thing that gets posted as pub­lic or pri­vate as nec­es­sary. Until then, I really feel like I need to share the fol­low­ing post with the inter­net. Kim some­times gets mad when I tell peo­ple “our busi­ness,” but I think this is some­thing that needs to be said, some­thing that I strongly agree with but am not qual­i­fied to say myself. She has been long frus­trated with the sta­tus quo among Filipino-American cul­tural groups (specif­i­cally those found in col­leges and high schools) and has expressed her frus­tra­tion to me on numer­ous occa­sions. The fol­low are Kim’s words:

If you haven’t yet read it, you should read Noli Me Tan­gere. I’m look­ing at it right now on my desk. I don’t think it was [Jose] Rizal’s inten­tion to be a mar­tyr. To be hon­est, his death made more of an impact than his life…let me rephrase, his death made peo­ple go back and exam­ine his life and his work. Most of his work was done in Castil­ian Span­ish and not Taga­log. Taga­log was just sprin­kled in here and there. He pretty much led the charmed life of an intel­lec­tual with good schools going back between Asia and Europe to get the best of both worlds…it was his quest for an edu­ca­tion free from the strict Catholic fri­ars that led him to become some­what of a rev­o­lu­tion­ary. It’s a lit­tle funny to know that see­ing as how he was ini­tially edu­cated at Uni­ver­si­dad de Santo Thomas (the old­est uni­ver­sity in Asia and the same place my mom got her degrees). The Span­ish fri­ars must have done some­thing right…at least, at first. At any rate, he wasn’t the only one. There are peo­ple who did more than just write nov­els to try and spur a rev­o­lu­tion. Try read­ing about Bonifi­ca­cio some­time. Not to down­play Rizal in any way, but Bonifi­ca­cio may be the true father of the Philip­pine rev­o­lu­tion. Writ­ing about injus­tices is one thing, but try­ing to act on it is quite another.

On another note, Return­ing a Bor­rowed Tongue is worth some time. […] There’s a whole world of Fil­ipino poetry that isn’t rap­ping and doesn’t require ass shaking.

[Since] high school I’ve been try­ing to find my way through all the over­sim­pli­fied and watered down ver­sions of cul­ture that the sup­posed cul­ture events tried to pro­duce. I’ve seen enough tinikling and the girls who think they can sing and play piano to last my whole life. I’d like to say I’m not knock­ing any­thing those groups did, but in a way I am. I can’t even tell you how many times I had to sit and lis­ten to some high-voiced girl talk about how her dad was in the navy and brought her mom to the states and then fol­low it up with a hip hop dance in booty shorts. It’s all well and good, but that’s MY story. That’s almost everyone’s story. Tell me some­thing dif­fer­ent. Tell me what obsta­cles YOU faced. What strug­gles do YOU have as a first gen­er­a­tion Amer­i­can? What are your feel­ings when you hear sto­ries like this and what will it lead you to do dif­fer­ently with you life? In what ways will you edu­cate your­self about his­tory and what do you want your own kids to know about a coun­try from which they are 2, 3, or 4 gen­er­a­tions removed.

Yes, food is a part of our culture.

Yes, dance is a part of our culture.

Yes, in this area navy is a part of our cul­ture. But what will you tell your kids about com­fort women? Will you tell them about your grand­mother smok­ing cig­a­rettes with the ashes in her mouth? Will you encour­age them to read Nick Joaquin along with their Von­negut or Capote? Will you explain to them why our food tastes the way it does and why we use the ingre­di­ents we use? There are answers to all of these ques­tions that aren’t being pre­sented in a way that’s orig­i­nal or thought pro­vok­ing. These are things I’d love to see. I’ve eaten pancit and adobo, danced all the line dances, and heard that the navy sto­ries. There is always some­thing more that peo­ple aren’t say­ing. Things that they are too lazy to research or think about for them­selves. Søren Kierkegaard once said that “no is is an ought” and he was right. This is the way it is right now, but it ought not be that way. We can be more informed and enlight­ened. Jose Rizal always taught that “igno­rance is slav­ery.” I for one don’t want to live in igno­rance of my cul­ture. One thing I do know for sure about my cul­ture is that it starts with my fam­ily. I would have no cul­ture were it not for my fam­ily. This presses me to read and learn all I can about my his­tory, so I can finally real­ize why my fam­ily acts as it does. I can’t sim­ply say it’s the Pinoy way. There are cul­tural events that lead to ide­olo­gies, super­sti­tions, taboos, foods, music…everything. I want to know what they are and they surely don’t stop with my par­ents, grand­par­ents, great grand­par­ents, and so on. All of these things take root in a time that I can­not even fathom. I want to embrace my cul­ture, but before that can really be done we have to find out why it is what it is. You can’t know where you’re going with­out know­ing where you’ve been…it’s cliche, but it’s the truth. Fil­ipino cul­ture doesn’t start with any of us now breath­ing. It’s way deeper than that.

I per­son­ally empathize with Kim’s frus­tra­tion in my own dif­fer­ent way as an Amer­i­can who is eagerly try­ing to learn more about his girlfriend’s cul­ture and her par­ents’ cul­ture– which, as Kim points out, really are not the same even though they are sep­a­rated by only a gen­er­a­tion. There is a Philip­pine Cul­tural Cen­ter blocks from where I work and they offer noth­ing to the out­side com­mu­nity to pro­mote their cul­ture. They offer a lot of what Kim talks about in her post: line-dancing, karaoke, par­ties– really its more like a Shriner’s Club or a Knights of Colum­bus. As Kim says, there’s noth­ing wrong with this, but the name is a mis­nomer. It doesn’t cen­tral­ize the pro­mo­tion of a cul­ture so much as it iso­lates those not of the same eth­nic back­ground. I would love to take a begin­ner Taga­log course, or watch a tra­di­tional per­for­mance or edu­ca­tional cook­ing course. We live in one of the largest con­cen­tra­tions of Fil­ipinos on the east coast and most of the non-Filipino locals don’t even know where the Philip­pines is on the map. Fil­ipino Amer­i­cans are the sec­ond largest Asian Amer­i­can group and my white friends, who grew up in the same neigh­bor­hoods and went to the same schools as me, seem just as igno­rant to this cul­ture that has lit­er­ally been sur­round­ing us and look­ing us right in the face for much of our lives. They get con­fused when I tell them I am try­ing to learn Taga­log. “What’s that?” they say. My friends didn’t know that the yo-yo was invented in the Philip­pines as a weapon, that the expres­sion “Lives in the boon­docks” comes from the Taga­log word for moun­tains (bun­dok), that the Green Hornet’s assis­tant was orig­i­nally a Fil­ipino on the old radio shows (look I love Bruce Lee and all but how many Chi­nese peo­ple do you know named Kato?). They don’t real­ize the cul­ture has already per­me­ated their own and it really isn’t their fault. Cul­ture is dying in the coun­try– in this world! If you have one, peo­ple need to know about it.

12 Comments

  • Kim’s words were a great read, thanks for post­ing that. She def­i­nitely has a way with words and an intel­lect that is intellectual.

    I think that cul­ture needs to be thought about even if it’s not for­eign cul­ture (for­eign to Amer­ica). South­ern cul­ture comes to mind, Native Amer­i­can cul­ture comes to mind (what’s left of it) — even Hamp­ton Roads cul­ture comes to mind.

  • You have a way with words that is redun­dantly redundant.

    I agree com­pletely with your ideas about culture.

  • Will Butterfield wrote:

    In all the time I’ve expended here tonight, me thinks this was the most inter­est­ing read due, in no small part, I’m sure, to Kim’s excel­lent writ­ing and the fact that it struck a mighty con­trar­ian chord with me. I smell…all over it…sugar-coated self-importance… deep-fried supposition…the choco­late coat­ing of pas­sion­ate, obsti­nate, utterly futile attach­ment to pre­serv­ing ephemera…it’s like there’s this for­mi­da­ble intel­lect full of insuf­fi­ciently chal­lenged ideas and positions…like…like a well-trained ninja who’s never killed anyone…and I just want to fight it! And…I just love the quite real pos­si­bil­ity that I’d be way over my head and might even learn some­thing or (GASP!) be surprised…that would be SO…refreshing…

    I only ever met Kim briefly over that cof­fee we’d had YEARS ago…this short sec­tion of writ­ing makes me love/hate her! :D BRAVA! I had no idea she wasn’t dumb! I’d agree with you that she should blog, but I think I’d much pre­fer to engage in spir­ited debate for hours with the both of you over coffee.

    I don’t want to go full-blown here, but I think I have a near-polar-opposite view of cul­ture. It’s preser­va­tion and enshrine­ment is, to me, a near-sin. Such self-indulgent attach­ments are divi­sive and inhibit adap­ta­tion in the mod­ern world. It has, in my view, no proper place what­ever. It’s adop­tion for identity’s sake is cheap…easy…unoriginal…fake…hallow — like the cul­tural cen­ters you both look down on. You can know why cer­tain ingre­di­ents were used in a food…but what does this trivia net you? Fuck all, beyond a smug sense of self-ascribed supe­ri­or­ity and, per­haps, some deluded sense of belong­ing. You can’t really KNOW what it was like to walk in our ances­tors shoes…you just can’t. You can and should acknowl­edge those who came before, but the world is mov­ing away from the past faster every day…I very much feel for the bet­ter. Those who hold on too tight will find them­selves left behind or their arms ripped off — dis­af­fected, unsat­is­fied — whin­ing about the good old days, liv­ing in regret for the mar­gin­al­iza­tion of their half-imagined, over-idealized, sepia-tinted nos­tal­gia fetish like wic­cans or the SCA.

    Not long ago, I’d have agreed with the posi­tion that cul­tural homog­e­niza­tion was an abomination…but it’s spurred the devel­op­ment of such a rich vari­ety of subcultures…disaffection with the main­stream in a free soci­ety has allowed diver­gent views of an extrem­ity that would never have been pos­si­ble in the con­ser­v­a­tive soci­eties that dom­i­nated our forefather’s ways of thinking…viewpoints are, per­haps sur­pris­ingly, so very dif­fer­ent now…and that is so much more valu­able to me than any­thing or anyone’s legacy. And I’d argue…so much more valu­able to human­ity as a whole as well — and in some very quan­tifi­able ways.

    I digress…this is the stuff of very long essays and books. Dude, I so want to lov­ingly, respect­fully tear you both new intel­lec­tual ass­holes! :D

  • Will Butterfield wrote:

    A quick addendum:

    Try and for­give the ‘Will tone.’ By now I hope we’ve reac­quainted our­selves suf­fi­ciently for you to recall my ten­dency towards provoca­tively chal­leng­ing lan­guage when crit­i­ciz­ing estab­lished lines of think­ing and that this is not a prod­uct of spite or per­sonal inse­cu­ri­ties but an enthu­si­as­tic embrace of objec­tivist, ratio­nal­ist and sci­en­tific prin­ci­ples. For any­thing to have merit, espe­cially an idea, it must be chal­lenged. Refine­ment of theory…learning…honing of the mind, expan­sion of horizons…separating wheat from chaff; I could roman­ti­cize argu­ment as the most noble and glo­ri­ous form of war­fare yet devised by man because the only casu­al­ties are half-baked idiocy and unde­served con­fi­dence and pride — both of which we’re better-off with­out. When peo­ple dis­agree with me, I want them to ‘bring it.’ For real-for real…as it were. ;) I oft get car­ried away and eh…push but­tons. I miss argu­ing with my coked-up Mex­i­can writer room­mate from San Fran­cisco right now. :( Fuckin’ hippy…

    Any­way, I would love it if you two would do me the honor of a sit down one of these days over video-Skype, cof­fee and low-carb pie for a mutual ver­bal thrashin’ :)

    I will destroy you!

  • Or you could get your own blog.

  • Hon­estly this post is so old I don’t even care to engage you.

  • Actu­ally.. the expan­sion of hori­zons is one thing. Replac­ing what lit­tle cul­ture your ances­tors were able to sal­vage from var­i­ous regimes of con­quer and tyranny with booty-shorts and “rap-dancing” isn’t the same thing as expan­sion of hori­zons and break­ing new ground. You are smart, Will But­ter­field, but you don’t know what she’s refer­ring to.

  • Will Butterfield wrote:

    My Ex-wife is Por­tugese; par­ents immi­grated when she was lit­tle. I’ve seen my share of foil-laden tables and the dif­fer­ent ways, gen­er­a­tionally and oth­er­wise the Fre­mont Por­tugese com­mu­nity dealt with issues sur­round­ing their cul­ture. So…I’m not a total neo­phyte when it comes to this kind of stuff.

    Specif­i­cally, historically…no the rel­e­vance of her Philo-centric ref­er­ences did not res­onate with me…what I went off on was this preva­lent notion…the defacto, taken-for-granted-ness that there is value in what you refer to as “sal­vage.” Look­ing back and out­ward for identity…this neotrib­al­is­tic absur­dity with an insuf­fi­ciently ques­tioned claim to legitimacy…the ugly side of what’s called “multiculturalism.”

    The booty-shorts and “rap-dancing” like all emer­gent cul­tural phe­nom­ena are best judged (sub­jec­tive ‘good’ or ‘bad’ mea­sured) in a ‘con­text of total­ity’ the (sub­jec­tive) tragedy of the cul­tural ele­ments emer­gent phe­nom­ena sup­plant is at most a foot-note-worthy ele­ment of that total­ity, almost assuredly of ter­tiary sig­nif­i­cance to any­one not afflicted by rose-colored-glasses-for-the-past-syndrome. I attack the knee-jerk defense of tra­di­tion that we can never truly know or under­stand well enough to war­rant the pas­sions they engen­der because it is irra­tional and coun­ter­pro­duc­tive. I know that sounds like a spe­cious claim at first, but it’s the kind of thing I think I can argue pretty well.

    Yes…I know…start my own blog…well, yeah…I down­loaded word­press last week actually…need to pick a domain name and host. ;) That aside…what’s wrong with hang­ing out and tele-IHOP-ing a dis­cus­sion of the topic…help! I’m bored!

  • Will Butterfield wrote:

    Dude…I mis­spelled Por­tuguese twice…no won­der she left me.

  • Well take into con­sid­er­a­tion that there’s about 90 mil­lion Fil­ipinos liv­ing on the island, but 11 mil­lion liv­ing else­where in the world. The Fil-Am cul­ture is one unto it’s own. Filipino-Americans do not live the same way as the Fil­ipinos in the Philip­pines. Even Kim’s dad will say time and time again that he’s “too Amer­i­can” to eat cer­tain foods that he would eat all of the time as a boy. The broad­en­ing of hori­zons hap­pens whether inten­tional or not, but the homog­e­niza­tion of a country’s iden­tity due to a West­ern cap­i­tal­ist influ­ence (not a nat­ural evo­lu­tion of a cul­ture, but a “hey you’re extremely poor, we’ll give you money if you let us put a bill­board on your house kind of influence).

    Nev­er­the­less, the activ­i­ties that these college-aged kids par­tic­i­pate in with FACS and sim­i­lar orga­ni­za­tions oper­ate under the pre­tense of a cul­tural orga­ni­za­tion and the activ­i­ties therein have more to do with dumb ass kids in col­lege. This would be all well and good if the pre­tense were cer­e­mo­nial (you know, like a Fra­ter­nity) but these kids really think they’re get­ting in touch with their cul­ture. They feel “more Fil­ipino” because they can now name a few his­tor­i­cal fig­ures (with a scat­ter­shot under­stand­ing of these fig­ures’ role in Fil­ipino history).

    Not hav­ing any per­sonal stake in this, what infu­ri­ates me most is the sense of feigned intel­lect that exudes from these kinds of orga­ni­za­tions. If it was a Chess club and all they did was watch “Me & Bobby Fis­cher” and play check­ers it would infu­ri­ate me just as much.

    The word “cul­ture” might imply some­thing to you that is not intended. It’s really about an under­stand­ing of his­tory. I know Kim has a rev­er­ence for the his­tory of her par­ents’ and grand­par­ents’ cul­ture, that doesn’t mean she lives the same way. It’s got more to do with respect.

  • Will Butterfield wrote:

    While I think I agree with the over-all premise…I think you’re right for the wrong rea­sons… first, answer this: what is the “nat­ural evo­lu­tion of a cul­ture?” You’re really bend­ing the word “nat­ural” when you talk about some­thing so defined by arti­fice as a cul­ture. Let’s drag evo­lu­tion into it too with this sim­ple scenario…new preda­tor moves into an area pre­vi­ously dom­i­nated by another and they com­pete for the same food. Memes oper­ate very much in this fashion.

    What’s the rel­e­vance of West­ern influ­ence being trans­mit­ted via cap­i­tal­ism? Does cap­i­tal­ism carry a neg­a­tive con­no­ta­tion for you? Why?

    Here’s a fun thought experiment…once you define what ‘nat­ural’ means to you…is it supe­rior to what­ever ‘not-natural’ is? Why?

    As for the col­lege kids; a poseur by any other name… A prob­lem I see that makes such groups ‘worse’ is the air of legit­i­macy they’re given by the greater soci­ety. On cam­pus, the whole ‘roots’ thing is seen as intrin­si­cally noble. It’s not. There is an incon­gruity you run into when you have “pride in your her­itage.” The ‘pride’ comes in this queer form — sort of a quasi-non-confrontational, unspo­ken, vague asser­tion of superiority…racially…culturally…it doesn’t matter…it’s bull­shit. It’s divi­sive. It’s a pat­tern of thought that is allowed by and encour­ag­ing of irra­tional­ity. It makes scape­goat­ing other groups so much eas­ier because ‘they’re not like us’ or ‘their cul­ture is inferior.’

    An under­stand­ing of his­tory is great. It’s essen­tial for con­text. It’s when peo­ple go forg­ing their iden­ti­ties based on frag­ments of these failed cul­tures, often half-reconstructed or par­tially adopted but never really under­stood, that I develop a prob­lem with shut­ting the hell up.

    It’s just such a cop out…to define your­self heav­ily by what OTHERS have done…by belong­ing based on some­thing as mal­leable and fleet­ingly rel­e­vant (in the mod­ern world) as cul­ture. I mean…take Tim Bur­ton as an par­tially metaphor­i­cal exam­ple of the ill-effects of get­ting bound to goth cul­ture. You start off with Edward Scis­sorhands and Beatlejuice…fucking unique and awe­some flicks. But that well runs dry quick and you, con­vinced of the purity of your vision as partly defined by your cul­ture, think you can remake Planet Of The Apes…

    Now…there was a point there some­where, but I’m dead tired and need sleep…so…you think about that…or don’t…might cause ‘blown-mind syn­drome’ which is a like like Videodrome…in which James Woods was amaaaaaz­ing. Night.

  • I think you’d under­stand what I am say­ing if you watched 3 hours of the Fil­ipino Chan­nel. Also, you’re argu­ing just to argue now and that’s annoying.

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