Medication isn’t working as well as it has in the past. Seeing the doc tonight about super-sizing my dosage. Not terribly excited about it because I’ve been blessed with having very minimal side-effects and I worry that this will ruin that.
I’ve been pretty agitated for several weeks now. Got pissed off during an inconsequential spat with the wife a couple weeks ago and punched a wall that was stronger, older, and smarter than I am. Hand is still stiff, but I don’t think I broke anything. I feel stupid and embarrassed for letting myself get to that point. Probably the worst part of punching that wall has been every moment since when I reflect on how bad I could have potentially hurt my hand. For a brief moment all of my priorities went out the window. I could have really fucked up my hand and I am fortunate that I just hurt my pinky finger (on the right hand, which I don’t at all need to play bass).
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